Tuesday, May 25, 2010
could you try imagining this:
sat in the corner away from all the noise. my head was spinning, i didn't know what was happening. i closed my eyes and tried to drown out all the noise, but it was just too hard. there was just too much that people had to say, too many opinions that people had to form. i had to find an escape, i had to get out.
well i guess everyone can understand that. i mean everyone experiences it. the secret whispers that eventually reach your ears. those unexplainable glares and puzzling silences. life could be so simple if there were'nt people to judge and people to misunderstand.
i tied the piece of cloth around my eyes. i could feel the breeze in my hair. it made me feel light, like i could fly away with the wind. i took a step in front till my toes were at the edge. i looked up at the sky and smile. my heart fluttered in its little cage as i took a deep breath in. i spread my arms wide and leaned forward. i fell, down i went plunging into air. i couldn't see. but i could feel myself disappearing. but i was gone. before the pain could hit me i was gone.
gah, was thinking abt doing that when i was sitting at the top of the spiderweb. nice feeling. sometimes it just seems like whatever you do is not enough eh. maybe people expect too much. oh wells. i want achu's mummy and stickling and sickling and goat and 2007. (yes, this is not achu blogging)
because i understand that we all need love and i'm not afraid.
i feel the love, but i dont feel that way
-these lines make me feel sad.
ok thank you achu for letting me blog after 3 years. honestly, doesnt make me feel any better, but it feels like i put sth in my heart right again. thank you (haha, i have got to make it colourful now :x)
and i thought of you♥
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