is it a game of pretence? am i trying too hard? should i let go of this chain, that i use to hold my heart together?
but when i look into my heart, into my eyes, into my soul, its ___ that i see. is that why it hurts so much? because i know that one day, like everything special and important in my life, it would end. and yes, no matter how used i am to losing all that i've ever had, i know that if i lose this, i would break into a million pieces.
is it a demand? or is it just the basis of principles? tears evade me. my brain fails me. is it true that i've shielded myself, or is it true that this is all not real?
i want something stable. i want a constant. i want you
