Saturday, July 3, 2010
didnt go to school on thurs and fri.
i must say it didnt feel as if i missed anything.
but it wasnt a pleasure either.
it just felt normal like _______.
sleep just isnt the cure anymore.
going through a whole school day when you're not well is HORRIBLE.
remind me to never do that again.
but i held on for a reason.
i see the need for thermometers now.
didnt go for dance tdy either.
on thurs i saw the thermometer and it said: 39.4 and i really thought i was going to die cos the temperature didnt go down, instead it kept going up.
why couldnt i just have died.
im so annoyed right now grrr.
what wouldn i give so that you were the reason for our visits once again?
everything's so different now, it's scary.
we dont want to know everything. that'll be selfish of us.
just somethings, just enough. just so that we can go on knowing that you're doing okay.
have we become outsiders to you now dear?
i know you dont like what we're doing anymore.
and im sorry, but we dont have the strength to stop.
we promised to never forget your family and to drop by whenever we can,
and thats a promise we're planning to keep.
not strong enough-
and i thought of you♥
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